Will someone please tell me...

what is the benefit of being a "goody-goody"? When it comes to amoral issues, does it matter? Do people notice, and if they do, do they care? I think life as a goody-goody is harder. It's filled with more self-imposed guilt and more getting screwed by the not goody-goodies who are ready and willing to let the goody-goodies pick up the slack. I've always played by the rules and live in fear of getting caught the moment I break one. And you know it's the good ones who will get caught. I was told it's just part of who I am. Well I want it removed. My friend teases that I should join her club, "Ask forgiveness, not permission." I was also told that I will get bolder as I get older. But I'll say it here first, stop screwing me!