Sunday, October 21, 2007
I want to be like them
My parents just got back from another trip to India with their church, Hudson Community Chapel. This was my Dad's 3rd, my Mom's 2nd. If I can get some digitals of my Mom I'll post those later. Someday we'll go on a trip together! I'm so proud of my parents!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Thankful
...that i don't have MS or lupus.
...that none of my family or friends are in the ICU.
...for my husband Marc who is working sooo hard in school and doing sooo well.
...for supportive and wise and Godly parents.
...that God is helping me have a better attitude and perspective.
...for great food and great friends this past tuesday.
...for fall, by far my favorite season!
...that none of my family or friends are in the ICU.
...for my husband Marc who is working sooo hard in school and doing sooo well.
...for supportive and wise and Godly parents.
...that God is helping me have a better attitude and perspective.
...for great food and great friends this past tuesday.
...for fall, by far my favorite season!
Monday, October 8, 2007
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Where the rubber meets the road
I haven't written much lately mostly because of the phrase "if you don't have anything nice to say then don't say anything at all." I have found parts of my intern year to be more challenging than I thought. Let me explain.
The community my hospital serves is an underserved community filled with polysubstance abuse, the uninsured, noncompliance, advanced disease, and social issues I have not had any experience with until this time. I started to become angry when I sensed attitudes of entitlement and realized that portions of my first real life paychecks are going to admit noncompliant, cocaine abusing, ungrateful patients. How is that right? It certainly doesn't seem to be helping anything. I work hard to pay for other's poor choices? Each night spent in the ICU costs thousands of dollars. It's frusterating to be up all night admitting someone because they are intoxicated or because they took so much cocaine the blood vessels supplying their heart are going into spasm. These are evil, uncompassionate thoughts feelings that I am ashamed to admit to, but I am feeling them. Where are the warm fuzzies I was hoping to find in medicine?
My intern year is putting me in close contact with some of our world's unloveables. I think of what the Bible says in regards to what credit it is to us if we love those who are lovely; in my world that's my family, my husband, my close friends, people who love me. It's really no credit at all. As my mom said, this is where the rubber meets the road as far as my faith is concerned. These are the people I need to show God's love to. This is how we as Christians are different than the world. I am so thankful for the home and community and Christian education I came from. But living the Christian life in the real world is hard, and that's where I am right now.
The community my hospital serves is an underserved community filled with polysubstance abuse, the uninsured, noncompliance, advanced disease, and social issues I have not had any experience with until this time. I started to become angry when I sensed attitudes of entitlement and realized that portions of my first real life paychecks are going to admit noncompliant, cocaine abusing, ungrateful patients. How is that right? It certainly doesn't seem to be helping anything. I work hard to pay for other's poor choices? Each night spent in the ICU costs thousands of dollars. It's frusterating to be up all night admitting someone because they are intoxicated or because they took so much cocaine the blood vessels supplying their heart are going into spasm. These are evil, uncompassionate thoughts feelings that I am ashamed to admit to, but I am feeling them. Where are the warm fuzzies I was hoping to find in medicine?
My intern year is putting me in close contact with some of our world's unloveables. I think of what the Bible says in regards to what credit it is to us if we love those who are lovely; in my world that's my family, my husband, my close friends, people who love me. It's really no credit at all. As my mom said, this is where the rubber meets the road as far as my faith is concerned. These are the people I need to show God's love to. This is how we as Christians are different than the world. I am so thankful for the home and community and Christian education I came from. But living the Christian life in the real world is hard, and that's where I am right now.
A Happy Birthday
Happy (belated) birthday to my main squeeze who turned 31 on Friday, Oct 5! We celebrated by spending a whole evening together, an occassion in itself, and had a delicious and romantic dinner at Marion Street Grill. Sweetie, you're as wonderful and handsome as ever, and I loved getting to have you for the night to celebrate your birthday with you! I love you!
(This picture is from our cruise to the Mediterranean we took in June.)
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